New Period!

yay! exam is over

didn't write so much recently coz nothing is special. I spent most of the time at home last two weeks.

for the sake of statistics and climate change economics I tried so hard to be very well mingled with those theories *phew*

and now, I have to get ready for the second period. the schedule is scaring me a lot. In 5 working days per week, I have 4 days w/ 8 hours classes and 1 day w/ 4 hours classes. am sure this will perfectly kill me.

there is no way to get out of this mess but go w/ the flow. wish for me.

:(

useless

have you ever been in the situation where you have nothing in life but zero?

I am exactly in that situation now

I came to the conclusion that my life means nothing for anybody else

you may call me drama queen but it's true to some extent

as a daughter, I've spent half of my age away from my parents and do not really have enough time to take care of them, make them happy, so on and so forth

and my love life, I've never really felt that I am good enough for Benny. We've been dating for more than seven years. quite a while. I must admitted, Benny plays more significant role in our relationship. he is super kind - we've never had a bad debating time. anytime I angry, he's cooling down and control the situation. Counting our bad time, is doable by your one hand's fingers. he is insightful - I can discuss so many thing w/ him. Compare to me, am kind of nothing in this relationship. am just a grumpy dumpy girl who always ruin up his day.

as a friend, I also mean nothing. am the most replaceable person :p

I've never been in a situation where friend needs me a lot for some reason

too bad. I could not find anything good in me.

Terrible Sunday

Quick update on recent mood: TERRIBLE

kyaaaa....tomorrow is my very first exam here

really worry *crying*

and fyi, tomorrow's exam would be Advance Statistics! ok, this topic is already scaring enough for me and this is worsen by the fact that am gonna have this as the very first exam in wur - multiple layers of worriedness :p last but not least, English is not my mother tongue, I must admitted that I am also afraid if I'd be interpreting the question differently or wrong.. *pheww*

Students are allowed to bring the text book, by far we've been using Ott and Longnecker book, very rich w/ examples and exercises. We can also bring a summary in two-sided A4 and in our own handwriting. am working on it now. It's not easy to make a summary that will effectively help you during the exam. This is not just a matter of putting the formulas from lecture notes to something more condensed version.

well, enough, am grumbling too much...back to study!

wait wait wait - one more thing, staying at home during the study week has been successfully turning me to be a humpty-dumpty Kiki...so sad :( have to work harder in gym after the exams.